A Meaningless Chaos

take me out
beyond the break
of day

with/without
I’ll make a complete
escape
my way

(existence on a string) breathe in, begin
(take the whole world in) give in to everything
and let the vast surrender carry you back
home…

let’s swim out
amongst the stars
alone

and find us a place
beyond the gloam
we’re home
again

(existence on a string) breathe in, begin
(take the whole world in) give in to everything and let
the vast surrender carry you back

…home…

(existence on a string) breathe in, begin
(take the whole world in) give in to everything and let
the vast surrender carry you back

home.

I left my head
somewhere else
and forgot just how to be myself
there’s nowhere else
I’d rather be
than 100 million light years away

away from me
far away from me

you had your fill
I wanted more
it’s just as well
it’s how we live
so unadorned
yet here you stay
100 million light years away

from finding my hope
from finding my peace
from making my way back home
to me

there’s something with
the stars tonight
a solar beam
refracting light
8:20 here
and into space
100 million light years away

from finding my hope
from finding my peace
from making my way back home
to me

from finding my hope (my hope)
from finding my peace (my peace)
from making my way back home (making my way back home)
from finding me (finding me)

100 million light years away.

I don’t believe in superman, the pope, or presidents
I don’t believe that all our hope like money has been spent
I don’t believe in CEOs, the Fed, or CIA
self-serving sins will only help you on your way

I only
believe in love
only
believe in love

I don’t believe the rich, the poor, or the middle class
I don’t believe forgiveness when you never had to ask
I don’t believe in television or in Hollywood
I don’t believe in evil i don’t believe in good

I only
believe in love
only
believe in love

I don’t believe in all or none, without some give and take
I don’t believe in looking back to relive past mistakes
I don’t believe inactivism is the rage today
I don’t believe in believing you never had a say

I only
believe in love
only
believe in love

I don’t believe in secret handshakes or conspiracies
I’d rather fail on my feet than live on my knees

a monument for all time
held its greatness in our hands
burned in effigy to spite us
razed and broken where it stands
offhand

fallacies
false soul searching
wastes our time

with no resolve
we watch it fall
into decline

a front row seat to leave it all behind…

a monument to our plans
left on a blood soaked floor
ghosts of those who’ve gone before us
shame we never did much more
to end this cold war

soul numbing
mass tragedies
that beat us down

into a state
of active hate
an upside down

and as we fall your thoughts and prayers abound…

nameless/faceless
eyes in the crowd stare down
a falling, our calling
this will be

a monument to all love…

stood outside myself for way too long
took a wrong turn, headed back home
it’s these desperate days, that we run from
looking backward
rushing headlong
barely holding on

let go of the reins
to find a phantom pain
and modes of pretext
that give it all away

lies based on truth’s distrust
no self, just self-destruct
digressed by designed fear
it’s more fun to disappear

bleeding out and feeling nothing wrong
a broken will remaining headstrong
it’s these desperate days, that we run from
on our knees
a lapsed salvation
barely holding on

another loss of faith
can never be erased
lawless grifters abound
to put you in your place

lies based on truth’s distrust
no self, just self-destruct
digressed by designed fear
it’s more fun to disappear

(surrender)

personal truth
never calls for proof
half-baked collusion
breeds disillusion

lies based on truth’s distrust
no self, just self-destruct
digressed by designed fear
it’s more fun to disappear

…disappear…

oh no, I’m in trouble
her hair is down
she doesn’t know I’m here
eyes of an angel
she thinks she sees straight through my intentions

oh no, I’m in trouble
and in this moment of insignificance
she sits and stares
it’s as if she thinks me invisible

but I see skies in eyes so blue
they seem to go on forever
don’t mind life when I’m with you
I found a way to make it better

oh no, I’m in trouble
she’s got my heart in her hands
and she’s wringing
she knows that i’m dying
but she takes my last breath away in ecstasy

oh no, I’m in trouble
I had my chance
now it seems I have settled
on what-could-be’s
when she’s all that I’ve been waiting for

I see skies in eyes so blue
they seem to go on forever
don’t mind life when I’m with you
you find a way to make it better

falling in and out won’t do
need the act and the words to matter
I see the world when I see you

but I’m invisible

inhale
this vastness in a vacuum
take in
the oblivion of it all

one last dance
with all we could become
complacency abounds as we
grow weary with the parts
we choose to play

ill-starred, embattled we have come
to a point where nothing fair is won
a fate cast like god’s dice we are hurled

to push back the wicked in this world

we’re born
into a world of privilege
firmly on the backs of all
who ever came before

as others
risk life and love to get here
denied by hate
and the same mistakes
that we’re destined to repeat along the way

ill-starred, embattled we have come
to a point where nothing fair is won
a fate cast, like god’s dice we are hurled

to dance through the pain found in this world

(in this world)

ill-starred, embattled we have come
to a point where nothing fair is won
a fate cast like god’s dice we are hurled

to rise above the evil in this world

in this world…

no more I-told-you-so’s
no more I-dare-you’s
there is no shelter here
nowhere to disappear

nowhere

propped up against a wall
the lost, the weak, we’ll break them all
is this not what you asked for?
are you not entertained?!?!

call in the fire brigade
we’ve fanned the flames of disarray
now the bombs are dropping down
all around
all around
all around
it’s all a perverse passion play

in our country of ghost towns….

there are no more lefts or rights
just the
big idea that dumb & loud is right
this demo-idiocracy
will it be the end of you and me?

call in the fire brigade
we’ve fanned the flames of disarray
now the bombs are dropping down
all around
all around
all around
it’s all a perverse passion play

in our country of ghost towns…

our country of ghost towns…

the sky’s on fire
the fear is real tonight
we choke on smoke
they dine by candlelight
you’ve been left behind
though thoughts escape
on sold pipe dreams
whitewashed in lies and hate

…we gotta take it back…they won’t give it up…

smile, empty souls, for me
they say “i’m here for you”
smile wide to hide the lies behind your eyes

and damn the truth

a gold plate con
with nothing new to sell
he bait-and-switched
his own way out of hell
but it lifts you up
this thin-skinned act
you paid the freight on what
you can’t give back

…a new normal now…he’ll never give it up…

smile, empty soul, for me
and say “I’m doing this for you”
smile wide to hide the lies behind your eyes
now, what you gonna do?

(that’s right, we’re here for you…)

people taking to the streets
when freedom is the only thing to lose

damn the truth

blood runs knee deep in the streets
with freedom ceased there’s nothing else to choose

damn the truth

wave good-bye to the life
you thought you had waiting there for you
time to put away these reckless games of youth

all we see
are the roads behind us
littered with regret
and a truth that lies somewhere
out there off around
the bend

do you mind if I see?
mind if I found my way back
into your arms again?

do you mind if I play?
or would you rather I stay away from the heartless?

golden hue refracts in waves
broken, dimmed on the ocean floor
what’s been denied so long is the one thing i adore

she calls out to me
in a siren song
she takes my very best
while the wars inside my heart
can’t set my soul to rest
no

do you mind if I see?
mind if I found my way back into your arms again?

do you mind if I play?
or would you rather I stay away from the heartless?

so take me
and break my
heart in two
it’s what you do